Odd title, but it completely sums up how I feel. I'm too vague to remember quite when it happened, but she got me good.
Life is interesting when the lights are on but no one is home. So is driving! Hubby sent me for an errand to the hardware store a few days ago. It's about a ten minute drive. A straightforward drive.
I got lost.
I ended up outside my gym, a little confused, though I do vaguely remember dreaming about pumping iron and getting my bod way stronger. I pondered entering briefly, before realising I was dressed for gardening, not in my fabulous active wear.
At this stage, I'm wondering if I should even be driving?!
I wanted to write up a clearly readable post with things I did under each day. Currently, this is how I remember it...
Monday
Stuff happened...I think.
Tuesday
More stuff happened. Pretty sure I was at the Dr's at some point.
Wedensday
Nope. Drawn a blank.
You get the picture.
A Dr's visit earlier in the week confirmed something I had secretly suspected. My hormones are at menopausal levels. It's any wonder I'm vague. And dizzy. And fatigued. Gosh, what a fun life season this isn't!
I got my eyes tested. I have great long sight for my age. It's my short sight that is letting the team down. New glasses it is...when I can afford them.
By far, the most distressing thing I discovered this week was this: a grey eyebrow hair!!! That one discovery shocked me more than my hormonal headaches have. It's the one outward, hard to hide sign that I am indeed aging. My physical appearance is changing along with my chemical make up. Just like that.
And that is why I am deciding to lighten up, and not just my hair colour. I want to enter this new season with joy. Granted, a little hard when symptoms determine your day, and sadly, night. But there is hope! Laughter, joy and gratitude go a long way in making a burden lighter.
I have stopped taking the pill. It wasn't suitable for me at all. All it did give me was pregnancy like symptoms and raging, evil headaches. Despite telling my Dr it makes me feel worse, she didn't take me off it- her fear is I may get pregnant. Even if my levels miraculously come down from menopausal to normal, shouldn't that be my decision to make?! Second opinion time I'm sad to say. And on that note, no matter how much you trust, and like, your current GP, never ever be afraid to seek a second opinion. Dr's are human, and as human's, we all have our own bias and opinions. If something doesn't seem right to you, or you genuinely feel you aren't being heard, seek advice from another.
As I am very forgetful currently, I will have to present my week through pictures. Note, in random order, of course :)
A beautiful beach sunrise on Saturday. I needed to soak this in before heading to clean for a couple of hours.
My eldest baby came home after 2.5 months in Japan!
We gourmet lunched it- hot chips by the creek.
I confess, not enjoying the still humid, summer tempts in what should be autumn, but I do love that I live close to the water.
Nice lunch time views.
With a massive new development going on behind us, swamp creatures are emerging. Thankfully, just a snake in our yard for now.
Hubby wanted me to snap the completed fencing, so here it is. He did good.
Looks great, and just needs some touching up of black paint to spruce up the old fence panels.
Not a lot to comment on for the community garden this week. I personally struggled through the day with massive fatigue and headaches. Still, progress occurred, like here- Ben & hubby creating yet another pathway.
I did manage to mow, despite the challenge with my health and the heat. I'm amazed at how much fitter I am, even when I feel flat. Tackling this kind of ground is easy now.
Go me!
My sweet little girl.
She melts my heart daily.
Love this little bun.
She looks so grown up already.
Sniff.
But then, she shared daddy's chocolate and reminded me, she is still my baby girl.
Sweet little chocolate bunny.
This week included way more veg based meals. It feels good to fill up on what my body needs, not what my emotions want.
Hubby, my toddler and I went to Coolangatta for lunch and found a new space to eat. With great food and views like this, we'll be back.
There you have it, my muddled, yet wonderful week. I will keep you informed on my menopause journey, and hope to throw some great recipes in somewhere too.
Until next time, thanks for reading.
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