I must say, today didn't start out brilliantly. Hubby isn't well, and though my sweet bubby slept, I didn't get a great sleep for many reasons. I could have easily gone back to bed after the morning bottle feed, but I realised I needed to make my German teens school lunch as the wraps I had already made had been eaten by midweek. As I was making the wraps, I felt so fatigued and thought I really should sleep! But instead, I did dishes, washed and sterilised bottles, made fresh pear and apple puree, put a load of washing on... Thankfully, though not particularly hungry, I made a smoothy: 1/3 cup yoghurt, 1 raw egg, cinnamon and barley grass powder, and washed it down with heaps of water.
My non teen came over just before 10am to watch her little sissy. I used that time to clean up the back garden from all the renovation clutter. I carried pavers, walked back and forth through the house to the bins (oh, the joys of being in a middle unit!), tidied, and then it happened. My eyesight went, I felt dizzy, disorientated, and just not right. I called my non teen out. It was scary. I managed to sit down even though I was having trouble seeing. The spinning/ disturbed vision lasted a few minutes more. It was off to the doctors for me pronto! Poor hubby, ill and all, he had to watch bubby.
The staff were very efficient at my local medical centre. I had only waited several minutes before a nurse attended to me. My BP was fine. My blood sugar was 5.2, which is also fine, especially considering I just had yoghurt for breaky. I was checked, bloods taken, heart monitor put on. I also have to pick up a heart monitor from John Flynn hospital and wear it for 24 hours. Turns out, whatever the cause, I was just about to faint. If nothing else shows up, I'm chalking this up to doing too much while being utterly exhausted. Lack of sleep is stressful in itself. Bubby has just started getting consistent good sleep these past few nights. It is wonderful, but I do need to make sure I am in bed hours earlier. Until I get some catch up sleep, I will feel depleted.
This scare also made me be a bit reflective. I can't change the past, but I am extremely aware that we are what we eat. Sure, bad things can happen to anyone at any age, but for the most of us, its the sum of choices we make daily that have a big, accumulative effect on our future health and quality of life. As does our attitude. I know of many healthy eating people who are so passionate, they are angry about what others eat. I have fallen into that category too at times. Too many times! Anger isn't good for the soul regardless of what you put in your mouth. I want to change that about me.
A little panic is good for you! I wasn't sure if I was having a mini stroke or what was happening. But I tell you what- it made me realise what is important and what isn't. This girl is changing her outlook and making serious adjustments while she still can. Maybe this was a blessing in disguise? I'm treating it as such.
This morning's sunrise. I was beyond tired when I took this. I really just wanted to be in bed still. But it is pretty, and the reason I initially started recording my early mornings was to develop and attitude of gratitude despite sleep deprivation. It is such a stunning time of the day to be awake in all honesty.
Proof of my breaky- pre added water and blending. I also added a tablespoon of fibre mix: linseeds, oat bran and psyllium.
The pureed pears and apples I made for bubby while she went back to bed. Two for the fridge, and two for the freezer.
Me and my gals went for a drive this afternoon. My non teen had to do the driving part. We went 15 minutes away to Hastings Point. The headland there is just so beautiful, and just before the heavens opened, I managed to snap this crashing wave.
It is seriously so calming being near the ocean. The powerful roar of the waves and water has a soothing, calming effect on me. Good for the soul. I need to do this more often.
There you go, not a dull post at all! I hope that the next one will be positive and full of awesome recipes!
Before I forget- check out what I got up to yesterday on my Hank and Petal blog!
Until then, thanks for reading.
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